All of a sudden, putting Jaxon to bed tonight, I had a moment where him being small and cute and curious and 6 flashed before my eyes. I realized he is growing, times will change, and these kind of days won't last forever. I bolted down to my computer and am determined to CREATE time to document these sockety days with my sweet little angels. So that some day, when they're grown and gone, I can re-live these days and relish the little things. So here I am.
Today was a beautiful Sabbath day! It started out rough. Jax was in one of "those" moods. I love this kid and he has SUCH a strong personality. Wow. So, once the roughness was through, we made it to church for the last hour. HA! Yes, it was one of THOSE mornings. I bore my testimony in Relief Society (I felt I didn't have a choice, it was a must this time). James and I just celebrated our 9th anniversary, and I have felt especially grateful for the miracle we have experienced. The point I felt absolutely had to be shared was the reality of the atonement of Jesus Christ. I have witnessed it, so many times, but particularly through our journey in marriage, I have absolutely witnessed the REALITY of the fruits of the atonement. And for that, I am ETERNALLY grateful and in "aw." It was beautiful. I love watching the hand of the Lord in my life, and others. That one hour of church was just what served all of us to shift back into gear and bring the Spirit back into our cozy home. We had our ritual "Jesus movie" after our lunch, while snuggling freaking brains out, then "watched" Megamind. (Jaxon is the only one who ends up actually watching any of our Sunday movies, James and I watch the insides of our eyelids. Ahhhhh.)
Seriously, that Sunday snuggle and nap is probably what I look forward to the most in the week. I heart it. More than words. My chest literally just aches to hold my babies (James included) super close. I love making a "mommy sandwich" the most :) RIGHT in the middle of my boys, right where I belong. Jax has the same little "pant" once we're almost snuggling. It's like a baby about to nurse. You know that pant? Then once we're all situated and socketed, all is well :)
Then we went over to the Cookies for our Super Bowl party! What a sockety day...
My cute Mama made some yummy roast, tatos and carrots.
It was a heavenly day. The boys were so fun!
We did lots of snacking, (Cbear says "mmm, UUUmmy!")
sit sit, (where we lift the littles up with our legs and they stand on our hands)
snuggling,
train and castle building,
Jax and Karly laughing their brains out over bloopers on youtube,
Erin and I doing some crazy Zumba moves,
flying the remote controlled helicopter,
chatting,
Gramma, Karly, and Jax played kazoos and harmonicas,
taunting Ginger by pretending to hit each other and watching her "protect" us,
Christian kept saying, "OW, owie" with worried eyebrows,
Whenever he felt uneasy or confused he says it. It's great.
Crappa did some snoring,
Cbear loved the jello and begged everyone for some,
Jax and Jamous jumped on the tramp,
taking turns stepping on Kyle's six pack, stomach trying to make him toot,
I talked to Beedow who has a brand new baby, Peyton!!
Oh, and I think we watched the super bowl a little too.
On the way home, we heard Hilary Weeks song, "Beautiful Heartbreak." Oh how I adore this song!! It brings me back to pure gratitude for my now, everytime I hear it. For years, I ached to live in a space that is my NOW. I wanted normal days, safe days, happy days. And my days are just that, but really, they're INCREDIBLE!!! Because I am so blessed, every stinking day.
I am so grateful I get to be a Mommy. I just love it. It's rough at times, for sure. But I absolutely LOVE being a Mama. I couldn't love my little sweeties any more. Truly, I feel blessed to have them in my home, and to be their one and only Mama. SO blessed, and SO grateful.
I am SO grateful my sweet husband is still, and forever, mine. We have worked so hard to create a beautiful relationship where we both feel safe, and loved, and inspired.
We still work on it, everyday. But today, I am especially grateful for the atonement of my Savior. It's so real. I love Him so much. I feel like the bond that James and I have is held together by Christ. Truly. He is the glue. And I AM so grateful for that!
Today is a beautiful day, and I AM SO GRATEFUL!
xoxo
