I am soo grateful for my Hunny, James. To be really honest, when I read so many people talking about how their husband is just perfect and life is perfect and their kids are perfect, blah blah blah (sorry) I get a little gagging sensation and a nauseous feeling!! I told you I was being honest. I think because I adore people who are real. Genuine. Comfortable realizing that life in fact isn't always "perfect."
Don't get me wrong, I strongly, STRONGLY believe that our way of thinking, talking, interacting truly can "attract" more tragedy or more fulfillment into our lives---but the reality is, we are learning. Therefore, we can't possibly think 100% positive all the time and have nothing but rosy days all our lives through. I believe it's how we handle ourselves amidst heart-break that can dictate what we get more of. I thoroughly enjoy reading about, learning about, and associating with people who accentuate the positive and build on it, but are confident enough about themselves to realize that perhaps everyone in this world is learning and has down right crappy days sometimes!!! And can recognize it and learn from it.
It is so powerful to talk to someone who is gracious & humble enough to share how they have grown in life. Maybe come from a certain paradigm and over time & through some learning experiences has adapted & learned to appreciate and even embrace a different vantage point. Make sense???? I love hearing about happy endings that involve growth, tears, stretching, learning, humility, commitment, compromise, hard work, faith, REAL CHARACTER etc to reach a higher, more fulfilling place in life and spirit. Where at the beginning of a challenge, it might be overwhelming to even fathom facing such trials (adventures as we like to call them) but at the end of the day feel gratitude for the transcending place they have found.
So with that being said, I could name so many people closest to me who have been such in-credible examples of this to me. SO MANY. People who have truly faced devastation and chosen to create joy and to be a beacon of light for the rest of us to watch in aw. Each of you can pretty much think of our interaction and squeeze yourself for me, because I have pulled something from it and it's a blessing to me. I too hope to be one of those who is willing to share some life lessons and always express gratitude for the priceless paradigm shifts I experience. I would love to lift even one person's spirit in the process.
Now back to my first seemingly irrelevant sentence. Today I had chaos in my head, and unfamiliar "uncertainties" bouncing in my brain. My sweet husband truly is becoming more everyday my best friend and knows how to calm the mind of this crazy ocd girl. After reading my rant above you know I am for real! It feels so good when the words that come from me are 100% authentic. I love my sweetheart.